posting...
 

instead of purging.

i'm at work, i just downed a whole order of chicken tenders followed by a gigantic order of bread sticks and a liter of water.
i feel bloated and disgusting...
i'm holding back very hard from going the rest room to purge to make this gross feeling go away.

im trying to tell myself, i'm off tomorrow night, let the feeling pass, go home, have a bowl of cereal and go see a personal trainer for a little bit tomorrow and i'll feel all better and move on.

but right now its taking everything in me to not purge it all and make this gross feeling go away. i wish so much i had eaten the powerbar in my purse and not the gross food that everyone ordered!!!

:(:(:(

Take it easy and stay out of the bathroom!! The feeling will go away, and if you do see the trainer tomorrow, the guilt will disappear too!! Nothing is accomplished by purging (I know from years and years of doing it!!) -- I was my fatest when I purged -- could never figure that one out!!

I hope you are feeling better.

how did you do??

i did well - not only did i not purge, i was all set to go to mcdonalds on my drive home, was great for a huge binge and drove right past it!

didnt go to the personal trainer, but i didnt purge *and* i didnt binge.

ughh... i hate that feeling! well done for being so motivated and not stopping at macdonalds!! keep going forward :) xxx

Good for you for not stopping at the McD's!