Okay! So I just lost the post I just did! Damn that sucks! Basically I am having a bad couple of weeks eating wise...not sure if it is involving binge triggers that I had had in the house...stress...underlying medical issues...I just don't know.

I am sitting here fighting with myself to get off my butt and out to the garage to get on the elliptical...I have a mountain of laundry to get done today and about a million other chores I should be doing...but I am sitting here feeling pissy. I got down to 152.5 (for one day, but still) last spring...then we moved...I hurt my knee...I don't know what happened...I saw 162.5 on the scale this morning...that really hurt.. I have been eating like a woman possessed lately...I feel like crap because of it and part of me is just happy to have had the food...how sick is that? I really need to just stop whining and get it together...get back to feeling like myself again because this just sucks too much.

I am going to go workout...I am going to eat well today...I am going to fake the energy until it is true...thanks for listening to my babble Everyone...hope you are all feeling better than me today.

You can do it ravengirl!!!

maybe try to figure out what your triggers are?

And I am a big fan of timing my exercise around laundry. Saying "I will exercise until I have to put this stuff in the dryer"... And if I'm having a lazy day, it makes me excited for the laundry haha. Kills two birds with one stone.

Thanks Carey...

I appreciate your kind words. I do know what at least a couple of my trigger foods are...and I have had them in the house recently and have really lost the struggle with them. At this point, I am not sure which came first, the chicken or the egg so to speak...I just know that my eating has been bad bad bad. And yesterday, despite my good intentions wasn't any better. I am hoping that today is...I didn't even manage to get my workout in like I had planned yesterday. I am hoping that today is a better day and I get my head straightened out before I lose more ground than I already have. I did manage to get some of the laundry done however...

I can totally relate to putting off doing what i need to do for me so that i can do what i need to do for my home/family. i wasted a lot of my last gym membership that way. Something i am learning is that the laundry, dishes, etc will still be there in an hour after my workout is finished, and i will still be able to do it after i take care of myself. I love what carey said too about working oyt around the housework. i have a mountain of laundry yelling at me right now- im gonna try this! hahaha thanks!
good luck & happy thoughts to you Ravengirl!

Hey Marianne!

Thanks for caring! Today has already been better...I am sitting here all sweaty from my elliptical workout and definitely feeling my nice endorphin buzz for the day. I still need to stretch and do a few pushups, tricep dips, and maybe a few crunches but I feel really good. I have found that if I take the time right after kiddo leaves for school...not get sucked into playing around on the computer until my motivation gets sucked away I do much better. I have just been wallowing in apathy lately... Today, I went out there, got in my 45 mins early in the day and nothing can come up to derail it, it's finished! I don't know if it is too soon to be optimistic about food for today but so far...feels like it might be a good day after all!!! Yay!

Good job on the workout Ravengirl. You are doing a great job!

Hey thanks Valerie!

I am actually on a role! I just finished my elliptical workout for today as well! And the stretches that I am supposed to be doing all the time for my knee problem...Yeah, sometimes I am a little lax with the stretches...my Dr. yells at me...

Yesterday was awesome foodwise as well and so far today is going well. I am feeling really good! And even though DH gave me Godiva for V-Day. I had 2 pieces yesterday and haven't felt any bingey feelings...but that didn't really surprise me...it is not a known trigger. So! I feel pretty awesome. I was even down a pound this morning and TOM hasn't even showed up yet. I know I did some pretty good damage with the past couple of weeks but it looks like it may not be *quite* as bad as I thought!

I am off to shower and get started with the rest of my day! Happy thoughts Everyone!