Thanks for the encouraging words, ladies! I really appreciate it!

As expected, the scale is up today. I'm just not sure if I want to go to TOPS tonight and face the humiliation of another gain. :(

I do feel a little better, though. I went and walked 2 3/4-miles, and I jogged 1/4 of a mile. No matter how the scale is responding, I'm doing much better things for my body than I was before. Jogging, even that little, tiny bit, makes me feel a sense of accomplishment. Jogging used to be the furthest thing from my mind. So, I'm *trying* to look at the positive side of things!

Brenda: You snuck in on me there! I know exactly how you feel. I want everything I can't have. Not tons of it. Just bites here and there. Just a little taste. My DH catches me just staring at food lately. We'll go out to eat, and I'll order something completely OP. I eat it. It tastes good. But, I can't stop staring at the sin on my DH's plate, whatever it might be. I just sit and stare and want. It's really, really bad! I'm like you, for the first few months I was completely happy with my choices. Now, all I want is everything I can't have. It's not a good feeling, and food is about all I think about these days...

It bites doesn't it? I WANT to be thinner and I AM making healthier choices for my body. But dang it why can't stuff that's GOOD for us taste like the stuff that's BAD for us? lol. I made brownies--ate 2. not even sure why I ate the 2nd one. I'm waiting for them to cool off and then I'm throwing them in the freezer. I've decided I need to cut up cauliflower and celery and if I need something to chew on it's going to be that. Not that it's as good as something chocolate--but it'll be a better choice (sigh). I've got a ways to go before I get where I want to be weight wise. I'm not going to get there by eating low carb brownies and pistacchios. It's back on trying for strict induction for me. I think part of my mistake was intaking too much cheese. I'd eat it on my salad AND my eggs in the morning. One day at a time!!! Starting now...

Afternoon Everyone,
I'm still feeling a little down but better then this mornin. I think its TOM.. he's sticking around longer then usual this week, maybe it's all the water I've been drinking. *shrug*

Jina Hang in there girl.. You'll get out of this rut!
It bothers me as well about all the junk some people can put into thier mouths and never gain a pound. And working in a resturant I see plenty of it. I try to convince myself.. "those fries look to salty".. "that cake looks too darn sweet".. "those buns look hard as rocks" It's all a mind game.. you know I'd love to sit down to that bunned burger .. fat fries and yummy cake. And I could! Noone is stopping me.. noone is standing there monitoring every move I make. But I don't.. because I physically feel so good compared to what I did 3 weeks ago. Mentally is not always that good, that night my family wanted Pizza Hut for dinner I was devistated, I was ready to cry. I sat there with that "horrible" salad watching them eat all the "good" stuff.. ah thats right.. its supposed to be the other way around ;) All I can say is that bothered me alot!

Sped - thanks for the tips .. I'm going to play with it a little later tonight. I just thought I would feel it right off the bat like I do when I'm using the AB roller. With that I KNOW I'm working them bad boys :lol:

JJCJ - The first thing I did when I moved here was rip up the floor of my bathroom.. It was a 2 day job that turned into forever. It's such a pain in the rear but the results are well worth it.

Brenda - I know exactly how you feel. It take every last bit of willpower for me to turn some foods down. I just keep telling myself.. maybe later I'll have some.. maybe later.. and later never comes lol It's hard but it works for me.

Shimma - stop.. breath.. take a break.. geesh you make me tired just reading your posts. busy busy

Hillary - GO GO! Great job on the loss!! Feels good huh?

Star - Thanks for bringing that article to our attention. It just frustrates me to no end.

To Anyone I missed :wave:

Now its time for me to do a flyby cleaning of the livingroom before kiddos get out of school. I guess my break is over *sigh* LET THE GAMES BEGIN!

Jina my darling!!!! I know how you feel I have been in a rut for about month and I have felt every feeling in the book about it, girl hang in there!! I am right here with you! Let s amke quiche it will make us feel better!!

JJ good luck with the floors, I have to do the same as soon as it stops raining this spring.

Star thanks for bringing up the article, I will be responding soon.

Hillary EXCELLENT JOB!!!!!!

Trazzie glad you are feeling better today.

Brenda good call on freezing the brownies!!! excellent idea!

Hi Sped and I am sooo lgad the OT last week didn't stop you any!

Shimma you are so busy you make my head spin!!! :)

Hello to any others I might miss or might have logged in after this!

I am off to the gym, got off at 12:30 and I am sooooooooo done with training, I get to go back to my normal P/T schedule!!! AND I get to see my DH daily!! We made up for some lost time this V-day weekend (hubba hubba!! ) ROFL!! Talk to you later!

Better Late Than Never!
 

Had no time to post recently...and while I can now read the threads from work I cannot reply - what a bummer!

Back from my aunt's funeral in Montreal - I am sad that my aunt died as she was the last of a generation (my dad's sister and the last of 7 children)...but she was very old and lived a hard life (she's over 90 - no one really knows her age.....and she was in concentration camps during the war and witnessed the death of her first husband and two small children at the hands of the ****s).

However, I found out I am now a heiress! (so appropriate for a princess don't you think?).....don't get too excited...I am exaggerating a bit...but I did see smidgens of the will (where both my brother and I are mentioned) and we each get 15% of the estate...whatever that may be. There is a duplex to be sold with contents I guess...and bonds, cash etc......and I suspect none of this will be settled until the end of this year...so I don't know what I'm getting - but it is still exciting to dream a little? (will most probably put the $$ down on our mortgage...but it is nice to ponder other princess like things I would prefer to do?)

It is freezing cold here........need to warm up.

Eating has been bad over the weekend (see pig out thread for further details - but be warned it's not pretty!)......and trying to get back on track! I did have a glass of wine w/dinner tho...and some sf chocolate....and have been visiting the washroom ever since (will she ever learn??? ;))

Bored at work - still don't really like my new job. But they seem to think I know what I"m doing.

DH worling late again (as he did last night and all last week).....wish he would come home to warm up my FROZEN TOES!

That's it ladies - hi to everyone and I love reading your posts while I eat lunch at work - just wish I could join in!

Froufy :D

Froufy - I just had to post after you so you wouldn't be the last one for a change ;)

That's amazing about your aunt. Did she ever tell you about any of the stuff she went through growing up? The Jewish part of my family is from Germany so I have a particular interest in it.


I'm feeling cruddy still, but I'm toughing it out. I had lunch with my mom today. That's the first time we've done anything with just the two of us in I don't know how long. It appears that younger brother who brought the girl home over the weekend is talking about marrying said girl in May! :eek: Not much time for planning there! I'm all confused about it since they've been dating for a while (8 months, I think) but he just told her he loves her for the first time this weekend. Crazy! :dizzy:

One last little note and then off to be for me. I found my newest perfect t-shirt!!! Froufy, if they would have had two, I was gonna buy you one. It's PINK and it says "I AM A PRINCESS (spoil me)" how great is that??? :lol: