So Friday and Saturday the radio station I work for was out promoting at a local rodeo. I worked both shifts. (Both all day) and I was surrounded by delicious vendor food. (Kettle corn, churros, BBQ, funnel cakes, burritos, burgers, fries etc. ugh sometimes I wish I had a desk job instead of working as a promoter ugh Im always out and about surrounded by FOOD!) So I did good and made all my food for the day and brought it. But BOTH days the kettle corn lady came to our tent and gave me and my coworker a bag of it to share, aaaand both days I ate half a bag. I figured I ate about 600 calories in kettle corn a day and I reluctantly added it into my daily calorie intake. Then after work last night I went to a friends (she was making nachos) and I had that "well I messed up anyway, might as well mess up again and start over tomorrow" mentality. Horrible I know. I reached for the nachos and ate myself into oblivion.
So here I am today. Frustrated that I slipped up just as I was starting to lose weight but determined to go back on plan. So I went to my fridge and cupboard today and saw NOTHING that I wanted. The usual yummy lunches I always make sounded SO boring. I didn't want veggies. I didn't want fruit. I just wanted to pig out for some reason! So I kept looking and found turkey burgers and some left over plain angel hair pasta. So the turkey burger is 200 calories, the cheese I used on it was 70, and I used one piece of bread to put it on, 50 calories. That totals 320. Then I used the 1/8 of a package serving of angel hair @ 210 calories. So my meal just now totals 530 calories. Now calorie wise, that's okay. It's my first meal of the day I have about 1000 calories left and I still haven't worked out. But I feel AWFUL now!
I feel so full and just blechhhh its horrible. I don't understand. Should I feel guilty about what I ate, or no because the calories weren't that bad!? I don't know ugh. I don't really know what I'm asking here. I think it's mostly me feeling like I need to admit and come to terms with what I did. Was my lunch really bad? What should I eat for dinner tonight to balance it out? Am I crazy? Ahh help.

