Cutting of cals earlier today than normal.
Breakfast:
Porridge with milk-100
Porridge with extra-100 ish
1 x protein shake with water-100*
1 x ham
2 x ice cream bars-300
6 x qourn chicken nuggets-180 cals
1 x teaspoon chilli sauce-20 cals
5 x qourn sausages-300
4 x cracottes-100 cals
1 x coco pops bar-80 cals
1 x can of monster-40 cals
End: 1420 cals.
So i noticed that today i am falling back into my bad habits. I have been eating extras out of boredom. Those extras add calories and thus adds fat, so not good.
Today i had to go through my old clothes to pack for my masters. It kinda saddened me a bit that my size 6 clothes (which are now fitting me just barely) this time last year were falling off me. This lead me to question what is different between my life now and life back then.
Well for one i was a lot busier, i had a job, i had karate 3 times a week, the gym and all of this i took in my stride. Fast forward a year and no job and being pretty much inactive since April has made it harder to shift the pounds this is for two reasons.
1. I have too much free time on my hands, so its easier to eat out of boredom
2. The inactivity means i am burning less calories than i was
So today i can claim 2 minor non scale victories
1. Today is normally the day i allow myself milk with cereal and protein shake and today i made up my protein shake without even thinking to add the milk.
2. Part of the reason i gained a ton of weight was because of these muffins that a garage sells. I used to always buy them, pick and them and of course because i only picked at them, they never counted. I haven't had one of these since at least March or April and today i was going to have one. I *really* wanted it and it was the only thing i could think off today.
Then it hit me, there was no point in even going to the gym and trying to burn off some of last weeks food if i was going to just eat and gain more weight. So i focused instead on getting home earlier in time to watch the Big Bang theory. This worked and so i am very very happy.
My motivation has gotten very low, however i tried on the size 6 jeans which are my new goal to make fit better. I am also for the next week going to focus on everything i eat and see what my eating habits are a result off.
It may sound odd but i find that having a DS is great for weight loss since i don't have time to eat with one.
So today was a wake up call which i needed, so good and bad