3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

Hi everyone!
I am introducing myself to a new section of 3fc... once again... and hoping and praying this is my last & final stop!
I have been active on the weight watchers section and the atkins section. So before I even tell my story, you can see, it's been a battle.
My name is Nichole, I am 23, and married to the best man in the world. I know everyone says that, I am just simply being honest.:D
As far back as I can think, I was on a "diet". I remember bragging about losing 5 pounds in the girls locker room in 6th grade. I wore a size 8 at that time. Certainly not big, but much bigger than my friends.
I was in an emotionally abusive relationship throughout high school. When my relationship began around 8th grade, I was around 180. At that time it was just a fun puppy love relationship. As it progressed and we somehow stayed together things got worse. I got down to around 150 throughout the course of the relationship. I didn't do it healthy and lost and regained the 30 pounds over the course of high school. The summer before 12th grade I had a breast reduction and I specifically remember being 176 at the hospital prior to my reduction... I payed close attention because I wanted to see how much I would lose. I got down to around 165... not all breast tissue, but I was really sick and couldn't hold food down for a couple weeks following. Somehow, I shot up to around 200 by graduation. After high school, I did a lot of partying with my friends and ballooned up to around 225... that was when I met my husband. When we began dating, I began dieting... thought I had to lose weight for him. I got down to around 210 or so. Once I realized how in love he truly was with me, I began to eat. On our wedding day I was 223. He married me 2 pounds shy of my highest weight. I joined a gym but I was only a member for a couple months... I went down to 205 or so. In May 2008 I went back up to 225... exactly 225. For some reason, that is my breaking point.. my "dieting" point.. I don't allow myself to get higher than that. My husband and I joined a gym together and ate healthier... we didn't count calories, just controlled portion sizes and watched what we ate. I got down to 197. In April 2009, we went on vacation and I ate myself back up to 205 when we arrived home. I joined weight watchers and lost 15 pounds in 4 weeks. I was 190. I couldn't WAIT to see the 180's and I knew the following weigh in I would! My co worker who had joined with me discovered she was pregnant... what a blessing:carrot: Unfortunately for me, I no longer had a partner. I gave up on weight watchers and climbed up to 209. At 209, I joined Atkins... Only lasted a week or so... I felt terrible on it.. in that week, I lost 4 pounds. I've since gained the 4 pounds back. A little over a week ago, October 11th, my husband and I experienced a tragedy. My husbands cousin, age 15, was tragically killed in a four-wheeler accident. Once the services were over and we were back at our home, I decided it was time for a change. On Monday, October 19th, I decided to count calories. My weight that morning was 209. I have a journal at thedailyplate and I follow my caloric needs.
I am sorry for rambling.. I just wanted to tell you my yo-yo diet story. Things have definitely been tough and I've said this before, but for some reason, this time feels different. I really hope to stick around forever... I hope to lose the weight I need to lose and motivate others to do the same. It is so great to have these forums around... We truly are not alone and we will win this battle!