Starbrite I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling with these issues.
I have similar issues. When I look at my avatar or
some of the pictures from our cruise I look like a normal person. Most of the pictures I feel I look like a freak. I also look like a freak when I look in the mirror most of the time and especially the side profile. I just look weird and very freakish and I don't understand why. There's something weird about my jaw and mouth, too. I have looked at some of the pictures from when I was heavier but I don't relate to them either. Something else, when I am sitting, I swear my legs look huge and wide.
It's like they are the same size they were when I was 300-400 pounds. I have gotten to where I just ignore it and hope that I will adjust.
I don't have any answers, but just know you are not alone.