Yesterday was October 1st and I worked until 2:30. Ryan, my boyfriend, was out of the city all weekend visiting family and friends. He got back before I got off work and when I came home I was a little irritated from work with crappy people all day on sunday.
We talked for a little bit, nothing big. We kissed and hugged because we hadn't seen each other all weekend. Sleeping without him is very hard.
Then he told me he loves me more than anything in the world and he can't imagine not loving me. He said it wasn't possible. Then he asked me to marry him.
I said yes.
And we kissed and giggled and snuggled and laughed until we were exhausted. We told our family and then went and picked out an engagement ring. He wanted to spend a lot, I wanted him to spend as little as possible. In the end I got a reasonably priced ring that will not make me feel freaked out wearing it and it is awefully pretty. I thas three diamonds and is delicate and sparkly. It is getting resized but as soon as I get it back I'll take pictures and post.
I'm so happy I could cry. I've been grinning like a fool since yesterday. It happened about 3:30.
My goal now is to get down to 170 by the summer of 2008. We are going to get married in October of 2008. I'd like to be at goal weight by the time I have to do a final fitting.
I've been stuck at 280 for a month now, convinced I'm never going to get below it. Some of it is my own fault, giving in to temptation, not weighing everything, not really wanting to go into the center because it is a far drive for me. Lots of things have contributed, including my body not really wanting to do it. I've stayed OP for weeks and seen no movement, so I don't know. I'm determined now, I have a goal! A bigger goal than I had before. I'm so excited, I couldn't wait to share it with all of you.
Thank you thank you all for being my motivation. I really appreciate it.
-Sommer