Cassy - Of course it hurts! And it hurts physically, emotionally, mentally, and even spiritually if you planned your future with this man. But honey, what do you mean, "I have nothing left"???? You've got to be kidding! You are one awesome, amazing woman, who has taken control of herself and is on top of things! I know you say "he helped me with everything, especially my diet", but who really did it??? Who really lost 33 POUNDS??? YOU DID GIRLFRIEND! NOT him, YOU! You have EVERYTHING left! You have your amazing personality, your love for your friends, you even have a bunch of us here for you! You've got your whole future ahead of you! This isn't the end of the book, you're just starting a new chapter!
What do you tell everyone at the COD? You tell them you lost even more weight - 180# or whatever he weighed.
As for what you need to do now - you need to HEAL! You need to brush yourself off, hold your gorgeous head up, and immerse yourself in things YOU enjoy! What's your passion? Where's your heart? Art? Music? Reading? Writing? Home Decor? Car mechanics? Nasa? Rocket Science?
Honey, you find something that makes you happy, makes you feel invigorated, makes you feel alive, and you do it for YOU!!! What about learning the Tango? Picking up a new language? Needlepoint? Brick laying?
As time passes, your heart will heal, your weight will continue to drop (BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT!), and someone who will cherish you will suddenly be in your life. (The right one!) Someone who is smart enough to know how lucky HE is to have YOU in HIS life! Someone who is not threatened by the CONTROL you now have over your life! Someone to support you for who you are, not because you've lost weight, but because you are AMAZING!
So, you take a little time to cry it all out. And while you're doing that, you stay POP! Because YOU ARE WORTH IT! You deserve to reach your goal! You don't want to give him the satisfaction of seeing you fail "just because he left"! You don't need him to succeed with LAWL or anything else!
Cassy, you are a strong woman. A woman who has survived adversity before and will survive it again! This is a bump in the road, not a gravesite! You will come out on the other side of this! Don't give UP!!! Don't give IN!!!
Honey, if he didn't realize what a prize you are and what a blessing you were to him, then you'll find someone who does! You wouldn't want to settle for less! You deserve that!
So, if you still feel like you need a tub of ice cream - go look in the mirror and see exactly where that ice cream is going to end up! Then ask yourself if it's worth it after all you've accomplished on LAWL. You don't want to throw it all way, start over, or worse, let yourself go back to the deathly way of eating. You had a reason for starting LAWL, YOU! YOUR FUTURE! YOUR HEALTH! YOU! BECAUSE YOU'RE WORTH IT!
Okay, I think I'm through.
I hope you'll forgive me if I hurt your feelings or said anything to offend you. I just want you to see yourself the way I know others see you. Strong, able, funny, full of life, and VALUABLE!
I'm here for you girlfriend! We all are!
Hugs (and kleenex),