My biggest fear...
I'm curious if anyone else out there feels the same as me.?
Ok, I have my "normal" fears - such as, I've always been afraid of the dark (and yes, I admit it...lol), also I'm afraid of choking (can't stand turtle necks or choker necklaces), and I'm also afraid of drowning.
But something I've realized lately...I've been dealing with my weight issues since i was 12 years old. That is literally half of my life. I've gone up and down and up and down - 220 to 150 up to 220 down to 160 up to 180 and now i'm back at 170.
AND, now that I AM finally in control of my weight issues...I keep having nightmares about gaining ALL of my weight back plus some.
And I mean like literally going to sleep one night thin and waking up the next morning back at my highest PLUS more.
Is there anyone else who has this irrational fear? Not only are my nightmares of me waking up fat again - but I also had lasik surgery done 3 years ago (after 20 years of wearing glasses) - and I also have nightmares that I am wearing glasses again - with eyesight much worse than what I had when I wore glasses (i think i had a 400/20 vision - it was so bad I couldn't wear contacts).
It's wierd - but honestly, my biggest fear IS re-gaining all my weight back.
anyone else?
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