Hi everybody. My name is Trish and I had RNY back in 1999. I did very well with it (despite it being done on April Fools Day) and went from over 300lbs down to 110 and a size 2. I had a hernia repair in 2000 and life was great.
Then I got my sex drive back and it all went to crap. What really screwed with my head and body was being put on Depo-Provera. It made me depressed and completely mental. I mean coo-coo for cocoa puffs, wacked out CRAZY! I was told that I HAD to get on b.c. because of the risk due to surgery. Ok, bad choice.
I had a period everyday for a year. I would become ENRAGED at the slightest thing after having the shot. No man could handle me. What the heck!? I finally get feeling sexy again, slim down and toned up and actually ***get**** a sex drive------- and then I hate men!
I stopped taking the shot in 02. I felt waaay better. I started sleepwalking again and binge eating in the night and not remembering. So, a new doc said to try Topamax.
Then in 04 I got preggo. I just had my first and only child in July of 05. I stopped the Topamax for fear of not being able to gain enough weight and hurting the baby with the drug. After pregnancy I lost a little baby weight, but in the last few months, I have found it again. I just stepped on the scale tonight and found that I am a whopping 189lbs. OMG I want to cry.
My hope is that I am eligible for revision surgery. I have avoided thinking about the sharp pains I have in my gut when I lie down with the baby just because I am so disappointed in myself for gaining the weight back. I am so glad I found this site. It has inspired me to take the steps I need to get my life back.
Please keep me in your prayers. I am so glad to be here.