Am trying something new to me for losing weight. Am ignoring everything I have learnt over the last few years and doing something different. Have even got myself a wee slogan a mantra really I suppose if you'r einto those kind of things.
"If you do what you have always done, you'll get what you have always got"
Basically that thought came to me when I was outside WW about to go in and join up (again, for about the 5th time I think) and had no idea of why I was going to do that, apart from I thought I should. Obviously I need to lose weight I am over 230lbs and that fact is obvious just by looking at me. But I knew I didn't want to go back to counting points so despite my determination to lose weight I drove home. So why was I there, because I had done it before and it worked, or had it, I lost weight yes, but then I started eating and drinking again and have put it all back on.
So the next day I went into a book shop and brought a life changing (supposedly!!) book on making me thin, it is purely common sense, eat when you are hungry, move more. But now I am trying to listen to my body and this is not easy when for years I have fed it purely because I had points left to do so with, the clock said it was time to eat, I was stressed, lonely, feeling down, what ever. I have discovered I am an emotional eater so at least I have learnt something.
I have also started trying to visualise myself thin and healthy. I realised when I manage to do this (rarely!!) that I was wearing jewelry which I never do now and when I thought about it, my mind came straight back with the thought that I wasn't worthy of wearing any now. I know that will sound weird to everyone else but to me that made a lot of sense and I started to understand a few more things about myself.
So this motivational CD that I am listening to is making me think and learn about myself in ways that have stayed hidden deep for years. I know it will be a painful process, think it already is for Ray, but I think if i can face some of these demons I will be half way towards success.
Not sure if any of this makes any sense to anyone, but it has all been an eye opener to me over the last couple of weeks. It is amazing how much visualising yourself slim and healthly can make you think about everything. I am finding it very hard to do and find it even harder to listen to my body and the signals it sends to tell me when I am hungry or full.
Time will tell if I stick to this or go back to old faithful WW. Sorry I'm rambling, guess you'll get used to that, but time has taught me that I can't type and eat at the same time
Different track to my new life
Your mantra makes sense to me. 
we've missed you..a lot.
may as well eh? 
