I know how you feel, too
Leah,
I know exactly how you feel. I suffered from anorexia, bulimia, and a combo of the two in high school which caused my weight to go from less than 90 lbs. up to 150-both unhealthy for my 5'2 frame. In colllege, I got my act together and lost weight in a slow and healthy manner, getting down to a healthy 115 lbs. Since moving back home though, I have gained 20 of it back through bingeing and starving. I know how you feel to think not only that you have your weight in control, but your "problem," as well. And then it backfires on you. Something happens that causes you to revert back to your old manner of coping. All I can say is I am going through it, too. For what it's worth, though it is hard for me to accept, I recommend not dieting. Dieting leads to bingeing. Some people can diet and not develop a problem with overcompensating, but you and I are clearly not those type of people. I recommend giving up the struggle, eating healthy foods and exercising a noraml amount (nothing excessive.) I have been told by professionals this will allow your body to find it's healthy set point and eliminate bingeing. The hardest part is giving up dieting, which if you think about it, is actually trapping you. Good luck!
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