mellbell... i felt the same way that you did, in college. there was a lot of pressure to be thin. something i have realized is that being skinny doesn't solve life's problems, and it doesn't turn you in to a princess. Case in point: When I was 130 pounds strugging to get to 120 through extreme exercise and little eating, I was miserable. I still thought I was fat, I was crabby all the time, my boyfriend was sick and tired of saying "YOU AREN'T FAT" it was just making me crazy : I ended up gaining weight, which of course led to more self hatred.
I had a counselor my senior year in college because of this, and also a tough breakup with my boyfriend of 4 years. He helped me to realize that my happiness doesn't depend on how much I weigh, it depends on how I feel about myself. People don't love me because of my weight, they love me for me.
Anyway, I hate to go on and on, but here's my point (ah yes I knew I had a point): I weigh 160 pounds. Am I fat? Not really, I guess chubby, but I look good. I want to lose weight for my looks, my health and also if i want to have kids some day, and I am going to, but I am just so happy with my life that it doesn't matter how long it takes. I've only been losing 1 to 1.5 pounds a week, and that is fine with me.
mellbell, i am sure you are a beautiful girl, and if you want to lose a couple of pounds for yourself, i understand, but don't let it control your life, or destroy your body. I'm around any time you want to talk!!!
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