Hi Maurene,
It took me over 4 years of really deep depression b/4 I went to my doctor, I dreaded going and spilling my guts to her. I hit rock bottom and I hope you won't wait until that happens to you. The first time is the hardest. I went, I told her how I was feeling, I cried alot, alot, alot. 20 minutes later, it felt like the world was off my shoulders because I knew she was going to give me a perscription and help me. Its never an easy thing, thats for sure. I went thru different medications before I hit the right one, so don't give up if the first one doesn't help, and all I had to do was call my doctor and say it wasn't working, didn't even have to go in, she called the pharmacy and switched meds
EAP programs work great too. We have one here at work and only two weeks ago I checked into it and made my first appointment with a counselor who could help me with my compulsive eating. This took me MANY years to do, just cause I felt ashamed. My first visit was a crying session, but after I left she had me smiling. And my 2nd appt is tomorrow night, I'm looking forward to the help. But mostly and what kept me away from therapy is the cost. With my EAP program the first 8 sessions are free !!!! its a start
Bottom line, there's no magic words, you just have to muster enuf strenght to go make the first step. You can do it and boy for the 20 minutes of talking and crying can make the rest of your life so much better.
Hugs !! and let us know what you decide to do.
Leenie