Thanks girls ! :-)
I think the pattern is I get the groove going, do really well specially with exercising, am able to control the whole using food as a crutch, but then work gets crazy (no time to exercise), recurring issues with boyfriend arises, family problems happen, I feel overwhelmed and then I indulge, BIG TIME. Binges, sugar all day long, all the time, carbs... the whole nine yards. Then I get to the point where I am right now, hating myself for once again hurting myself, for failing once again... my clothes donīt fit me and I feel ugly, horrible. I get my eating in order, and make exercising a priority (even if it means I only have 5 hours of sleep a night), I get down to the low 140īs and it all starts over again... but everytime it gets harder to break the cycle, and I loose hope of ever being healthy ...
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