feeling defeated, that is!
ive been plateauing at 185 for quite some time. ill get down to like 183 then shoot right back up. for the past few weeks ive honestly just felt like this is it for me and ive been SO depressed.
i just sorta snapped out of it today. i read through my journal about how i was stuck at 190.7 for like 3 weeks and then lost 4.5 lbs in 2 weeks all the sudden (which is unheard of for me). i havent weighed in about a week and dont plan to weigh until next friday because the scale was making me insane. im calorie cycling for these 2 weeks.
i cant give up now! my original goal was to be 175 by NYE and im clearly not going to reach that and ive been seriously unhappy about that. you know what though? who cares. maybe i can be 179, and even if im still in the 180s at least i can be proud of the 20lbs ive lost and the fact that i havent gained weight in 5 months by then.
im back in the game ladies, i think not weighing myself constantly is helping (although i do worry how im going to feel if i have a bad weigh in after 2+ weeks). im trying not to obsess though, i CAN do this even if it takes me a couple YEARS, ill get there someday.