I think so, but for slightly different reasons. It seems that whenever I get down to a certain weight, I experience a lot of harassment from men -- strangers on public transportation, customers at work, even coworkers-- and it reaches a point where I subconsciously gain the weight back just so they'll leave me alone. It's like safety weight or protection weight. Like screw you, you won't notice me now! But actually just an even creepier class of man starts harassing me.
I feel very depressed right now. I just went to the grocery store looking as ugly as possible because I didn't feel like being bothered -- sweats, hair in bun, no makeup, body language saying "leave me alone" and still, bothered by unknown men.
Sometimes it makes me want to move to the suburbs and drive everywhere and stop working in a customer service field. Or just gain revenge weight.
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