Kierra: Hang in there! You are going through a lot of health care stuff in the family. That's rough on the mom. I am glad you are also made time to see a PCP to care of YOU.
Is the met the extended release? Sometimes changing to that helps and also eating with food. I'm fine on mine.
I've been where you are -- and in my case I've been a bit more aggressive about looking at other options, including finding new endoc. Mine is nice, but I'm still shopping because I think I'm at the end of her PCOS knowledge.
Rana: Welcome back from the travels! I hear you -- I got into a wheaty time again and coming back OUT is hard. In me it triggers a feedback loop of cravings for bready things and so on and it is VERY hard to break out.
My Check In:
Guess what? After all that, my feeling turned out right. Sigh. I get my new one set up and go to church and someone found my other fitbit there and I got it back. DH and I laughed -- missing for a month and here it comes
back. I labeled them both with phone number this time and now I have the back up for when this one goes missing!
So I have been taking Phentermine half pills. Not daily like I am supposed to but just when I've been struggling with the crazy night urges to eat. (At first I was on full pills and I felt jittery so endoc cut me to half pills and I was finding when I eat clean I don't much need it so I started just taking it when the crazy hunger hits. I also quit BCP around there so I don't know how that plays into hunger issues.) But I see her for the follow up since starting phen and I'm down 13 lbs in a bit over 13 weeks since the last appointment. Go me! Pretty much -1 lb a week average. THAT IS HARD with PCOS!
I have my endoc appt Wed. I'd be really interested to see what the period hormones are at.
I feel like maybe stopping BCP helped with the hunger but now I have to deal with it NOT helping with the moods? Maybe not dealing with eldercare helped get me more sleep? Maybe the fitbit helped track my ACTUAL activity vs my mental activity. Like I run marathons in my head but body mostly sits? Stuff like that.
I'd be at the start of the 3rd pack I've missed and I cannot tell if it is because the stuff wore all off and the moody has come back or if I'm still fine and it's just a hard situation I had to deal with at work that ANY person, PCOS or not, would have found nutty.
I asked DH for feedback and he said he thinks I was right about work, I handled it ethically, but that it is affecting me deeper than it should and this is what worries him. I need to just own my piece and let others own theirs.
This reality check felt like the affirmation I was needing and my temperature dropped considerably and quickly and I was able to move into a different head space and not feel stuck in "tempest in a teapot" land.
This was a MAJOR breakthrough for DH.
I have been begging him for YEARS to just be more assertive and firm with me when I feel in danger of hopping on the PCOS crazy train. The moodiness, you know? Emotional roller coaster. I also did not eat well during the stress, so the blood sugar roller coaster was also in effect.
Just take over and TELL me what to do -- stop, breathe, eat something, you did all you could now stop it with the teapot, etc. So I have aid in getting OFF both crazy trains. Don't be all timid and ask me what he should do to help. I'm feeling crazy trying to keep trains from crashing and you give me a third train? Directing YOU? *I* am the one needing direction!
So I chilled out and thanked him for his much sterner, firmer feedback and that I appreciated that a whole lot more than his usual approach. I wanted to say "Usually namby pamby" but I stopped myself from going there. The man tries. No need to be insulting, right?
D: Yeah, well. There's the self preservation thing too.
Me: Yeah, I know, I get it. But do more of THAT. I chill out much faster and see? Your head isn't bitten off. I like THAT! Do more, please!
D: Alright. Will try.
He struggles with me because his mother is a firecracker like I am only when SHE says to tell her she's being all teapotty and she won't take offense at being told? She takes offense and aims it all at YOU now.
I say to do it to me and he worries he's really going to be in for it if he does. And I get mad he doesn't act firm anyway. So he runs for cover feeling like damned if you do, damned if you don't so why bother? And I am frustrated because he does this without first
trying! I am not his mother.
He needs more practice believing me that I really do stop and I really do need that held up to me. And in the meanwhile, I need to bite my tongue and not B***H at him how he's not doing it right or fast enough or whatever and just encourage the parts he IS doing right whenever.
That's been going on for the last 2 years? And we've been together nearly 20! C'mon dude... I love ya, I trust you, man up and TELL ME when I'm letting my panties get into too tight a knot and to cut it out! Sometimes I cannot see the forest for the trees! Tell me!
And this time was like he had all the pieces and the puzzle snapped into place and we both felt successful we navigated some moody teapotty thing well for once. He listened to me unload in silence, he held me without my having to ask, when the time was ripe, he gave firm feedback in stern but loving manner, and I was able to break out and see the forest. Everyone breath sigh of relief. Ahhhhh.
I think now next time he will feel braver about just DOING IT and then for both of us these periods of wacko will last a few hours instead of a few days. Already a few days is better than a week or more!
I'm about to see the doc to check on labs.
She told me two years ago when DH and I had a huge fight and I felt nuts and it turned out to be my thyroid meds needing changing... and that maybe aggravated other hormones?
That PCOS can manifests as psychiatric symptoms sometimes -- stress, anxiety, and moods and all that and I was like "No S**T!" inside my head. "Thanks for telling me AFTER the blow out!"
But I NEVER find resources online talking about that. Mentions, yes. Going deep? NO. Anyone know? PCOS and mental health issues like that? Do you experience that side of PCOS? Or is this not PCOS but perimenopause? Or is it both?
There's so much more info about dx PCOS in young teens and PCOS pregnancy now than before. I am glad. But what about us? Done with the kids and aging? NOW what?
So odd with the work kerfuffle...
But my mood is really good again. I'm still feeling blah about work but for
myself I'm still on a high from the women's retreat a week ago and amused the old fitbit emerged from the Land of the Lost.
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2012 May PCOS Support Thread
