Hi all. I'm not new to weight loss but am new to these boards. I've always been around 200lb since early in high school (so 14ish years), but lately the number has crept up even further. I have a problem with compulsive overeating, and I got to the point where I was trying to control it and failing so badly that my sense of self-worth was really going down the tube. I was judging myself for every bite I put in my mouth no matter what it was. So I took some time off from eating "healthy" and just ate whatever in the world I wanted to eat, in whatever quantity I wanted, while working on telling myself that it didn't make me a bad person to eat ice cream (or whatever). Well, I feel like that journey was successful, and I am back to a point where I am on the outskirts of my compulsive overeating rather than entrenched in it.
Now, all that was worth it, but you can guess what happened - I gained weight. I wasn't weighing while doing it bc that is part of the value judgement thing. But we recently joined a gym and they do three free training sessions and so the trainer weighed me - 228. Ouch. Previously I had only ever been as high as 216. I am way too far away from 199 now, way out of what I am comfortable with - time to get going again.
So anyhow, I'm here, I'm working with a trainer, and cleaning up my diet without being too strict from the outset (I know that I have to do the diet part but I am afraid of restricting too much too fast). Hopefully gym time and clean eating will be enough to shake up the weight I've gained, plus the other 50ish lbs I need to lose!
Thanks for reading
Starting over again and again
