My ex husband was bipolar and sociopathic. Very depressed as well. I coped through food, marijuana and sleep....I became depressed until I realized this wasn't me.
My mother was also depressed, so growing up in that home made me that way too I believe.
I still struggle, but being without him has been wonderful. I hardly speak to my mother either. And being alone (well I have a partner but we don't live together) I am realizing that I'm not a depressing person, I just "contracted" it through the people in my life and I need new tools to cope, which is why I've done counselling, meditation etc...I do get down but I'm learning how to pull out of it....it's still hard though but MUCH better!
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