So yesterday I weighed in and saw I was up 2.6 lbs
I was within my points this week, although Friday and Saturday were very food friendly and very carb heavy, which isn't good for a Monday weigh-in. But even with over estimating all I ate, I had left over weeklies. And, earlier in the week I worked out several times after work and went for a nearly 2 mile walk Saturday morning. I felt disappointed and frustrated, but when I first weighed in I was determined not to let it derail me.
Of course, 12 hours later when I came home from work and normally would have worked out I said eff it, because what's the point?
And I felt that way today, too. In fact, as much as I hate to admit this: when I went on my dinner break with my packed meal with all the points counted and saw that there was free pizza, I not only ate my dinner, I ate
two pieces of pizza. Ohmygod. And, of course, I felt absolutely sick after. Both physically and in that "Why did I do that??" kind of way. But, it was okay, because I had extra daily points anyway I didn't yet know how I'd eat and I just only ate one of my granola bars later in the evening, so I only ended up using 2 weeklies.
Driving home from work I felt like I did last night: that I just did NOT want to work out. But I got home and I immediately changed into my work out clothes and I did my workout. I had to keep myself motivated just to finish it, but I'm SO glad I did because, of course, I feel better. Physically and just in general about the whole situation.
So I gained 2 1/2 lbs this week. I've still lost a total of 31! I'm going to Vegas in November for my 30th birthday and my mini goal right now is to hit 40 lbs by then. 9 lbs in 12 weeks is totally doable. Plus, I keep reminding myself that I worked out four days last week. A year ago that would have been unheard of. And I certainly wouldn't have worked out when I really didn't want to, like I did tonight.
This is a journey, and like any journey there are ups and downs, hills and valleys. What matters is staying focused on the destination, no matter how long it takes us to get there.