Today is day 10 of being binge-free. I have gone months and months in the past without slipping off plan. But the last few months have been very stressful with lots of major life changes. There are never excuses, but my routine was turned upsidedown, and that led to a few weeks of binges. I was getting to the red zone in my maintenance range, and it was time to get back on the pony.
I have been very pleased with myself over these last few days. I've stuck to my plan and have resisted some of the usual temptations. My weight was going back down to my comfort zone. BUT, those sneaky feelings of itching for a binge were creeping up on me. Justifications like "I've been sooo good...I can have a treat" and "my weight is back down, it won't hurt to have a cheat day."
I'd like to say that I snubbed my nose at my inner gluttonous devil completely, but I stumbled a bit. I bought a donut whilst out grocery shopping (I don't even LIKE donuts...it was just there so I felt like I needed to eat it), and had three cornbread muffins with dinner tonight after I had only planned one. I also had a beer, lol. So several hundred calories over what I had planned for the day, but fortunately, I had planned very light for the day and I probably ate right at maintenance or not much over (about 1700ish). Kind of a bummer, and I am kind of annoyed with myself that I gave in yet again.
BUT, here's the happy part of the story. I have the worst all-or-nothing attitude ever. In the past, if I have even two or three unplanned bites, I'd throw my hands in the air and say "all is lost for the day" and proceed to binge. Instead of being over my planned calories by a few hundred at most, I turn that into being over by a few thousand. Well today, I was thinking "all is lost," but I wiped the thought out of my head. I feel full. I do not want to eat anymore. I don't want to binge, I simply have no desire to. I don't feel like it.
So yes, I had a booboo today. Ate some unplanned things, but didn't go overboard. But I personally feel that the victory of my full tummy and also my logic saying "no" to the binge-zombie is a MUCH bigger deal than the booboo.