Kim- I am so sorry to hear about your father in law and the other stressful issues you are dealing with right now! I am an emotional eater so I know I would be having a horrible time as well. For one, don't beat yourself up about falling off the wagon or not doing enough over the past years. Take a positive twist that you are making a change for the future. There is nothing we can do about the bad things we ate or missed workouts so try not to dwell. I used to self-sabotage and beat myself up for missing workouts or binging to the point where I felt like I failed and gave up. Not anymore. I keep up with 3FC and joined the challenge threads, chat threads etc. It has really helped me stay focused and motivated.
Although you may not feel it, you are on the right path. You want a change. You can do this. You have amazing support right here on 3FC. You are worth it, your kids are worth it. You can do it.