Well let me ask you something. Why WOULDN'T you begin this journey again? What would be your reasons for NOT losing the weight?
It's all about decisions and choices and how you want to live your life. Being fat is a choice. Being fit is a choice. Losing weight is a choice. Keeping it off or gaining it back - they're choices too. You have to decide what choices you're
willing to make - permanently - that will give you the most out of life. One must accept that there is no going back to their old ways. You have to work on creating a
new normal for yourself. This is no diet that you're "on". This has to be a permanent way of life. No stopping. Just continuing. Find foods that you LOVE. Embrace the idea of being a healthy, fit person and really get into it. Don't dread it. Become EXCITED about it.
All that *head* stuff aside, once you get into a "groove" and it usually only takes 3 days to do so, you will be so thrilled and utterly relieved to be back to a healthy way of life. You will wonder why you put it off for so long. I know you won't regret it one bit.
So yes, think of your future and how you want to lead the best life possible, but perhaps just take it one day at a time and hopefully it will evolve from there.
Give yourself the
gift of 3 days, just three measly days of excellent on-plan eating. Heck, take it one day at a time or even one hour if need be. One foot in front of the other. You'll get there. And you will be overjoyed to be and stay there.