OMG, I am ACTUALLY doing this!
I thought this time, it would be special. Once and for all, I had banished using self-loathing as a motivator. Finally, I had gotten over the "all or nothing" mentality that had led to my failure so many times before. I had actually developed a workout routine that I enjoyed and loved to do every day. I started making new, healthy foods that were exciting and delicious.
But, until now, I still don't think I had come to terms with the fact that I am actually SUCCEEDING at this.
For the first time ever, as I stepped onto the scale this morning... my goal felt within reach. It no longer felt like some unattainable pipe dream that I could only hope to achieve. For years, my goal has felt like that... it's an odd but thrilling feeling to actually have it seem so close, so tangible.
Mind you, I am only half way to goal... but I can't remember the last time I was 145. It's been years... and it was during a time when I was still in high school. And while I do have another 20 lbs to go... I can't remember the last time I felt so good about myself. I don't want this feeling to stop. I want to keep going. I want to see what I am capable of... to see what my body's full potential is. I can't wait to find out!!
Any one else have their "OMG I can actually do this" moment?
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