Oh Veggie Babes!
You seem to have got yourself into a real blue spin!
Take it easy. Scream and vent here a bit and get your focus back.
Take things slow. You probably need to take a new look at your goals. Try just concentrating on doing one thing for a while. I'm with Sarah Ann, you are probably looking at everything you want to achieve in one big lump - I know that ALWAYS buries me!!
Recently I got a second wind and sorted a few things out. I stopped dieting and concentrated on getting my exercise sorted (I am teaching loads more classes a week now and I'm swimming for myself). Then I went back and decided to chang my eating patterns. That is not calories counting but eating at sensible times, putting breakfast back in and not eating very late at night (that's when I really binge).
Then I bought myself a book (Body Blitz by Joanne Hall). It is a diet book but I find her 5 steps make sense to me. I think that, as she doesn't harp on about cottage cheese and depriving yourself, I took to her ideas better and it gave me more focus and hope of long term achievement. Perhaps there is someone or something out there that will do the same for you?
I've lost 3 pounds in 6 days without really thinking about it and I am looking forward to continuing the 'diet'. Also I found
www.weightlossresources.co.uk
and I use their food/exercise calorie counter to keep track of myself. You get 3 days free trial and then it's £7 a month, with loads of useful info on all the latest fads and even more healthy tips. have a peek if you haven't already found it!
Come back and have another moan, if you need it. Stef