I posted on the "Find a Buddy" forum but I thought it might be more appropriate to come over here since I've got a lot of weight to loose.
Once in high school I got down to 118lbs (I'm 5'8) on a diet of dexitrim, boullion and dry toast - not the healthiest way to go for sure.
Once I stopped the *speed* the weight slowly crept up, probably sitting at about 140lbs for the next few years. (Though my driver's license always said 130lb!) Though 140lbs was most definitely a great weight for me, surrounded by the stick like frames of most of my classmates I felt positively huge.
After college my weight creeped up again, and was about 170lb when I married in 1993. I was always much thinner on top (that's definitely changed now) with a pear shaped frame and a huge ballgown, I was able to fit into a size 10 wedding dress.
When I got pregnant with my first daughter in 1994, I guess I took "eating for two" to a new extreme - I gained 10 lbs in my first month and was up to 270lbs by the time I delivered. After delivering my 2nd daughter in 1997, I was able to diet and exercise down to 205lbs. Soon I stopped though and continued to eat like a fool and *never* move my butt - which got me all the way up to 250lbs.
Since then, I've been feeling worse and worse - I'm only 32 but my body aches when take my first step in the morning. My back hurts, my knees hurt ... I'm a complete mess. I've heard that anorexics can look in the mirror and see someone *bigger* than what they really are - I've always looked in the mirror and saw someone smaller ... does that make any sense? I've always seen someone smaller until about a month ago I was in my mother in laws new home and didn't realize there was a mirror in the hallway - I was caught off guard and shocked at how HUGE I'd become.
After doing a bunch of research online, I was drawn to vegetarian sites. I read a blurb about an author named John Robbins who had written this book (in 1987 - shows how well I'm up on current publications! LOL) called "A Diet for A New America". I bought the book about a week ago and it's completely changed how I think. It's not a *diet* book per se, it's more about how food choices affect your health.
So many light bulbs have gone off it my head in that week, and I'm changing my life around day by day. I've completely cut meat out of my diet, and about 4 days ago stopped drinking the 6 pack of pop a day I used to consume. Yesterday, I started walking. Going around my "block" (I live in the country) is almost a mile and there are some gentle slopes (too small to be considered hills!) and I was hoping to God a neighbor wouldn't want to talk to me because I was completely out of breath. But I did it and I plan to do it every single day.
I've still got a lot to change - I'm a smoker and a coffee drinker too. In the past, when trying to lose weight, I've cut out everything cold turkey. But this time it's a lifestyle change - my eating and lifestyle habits took a long time to get so crappy, I can't possibly think I'll change them *all* in a day. So I've cut out pop and have been drinking water by the gallon it seems. And hopefully, within the next few weeks I'll cut out (or down) my coffee and cigs.
I think I'm in it for the long haul this time. I hope.
I stepped on the scale this morning and discovered I've lost 10lbs since last week - I'm sure it's the effect of cutting soda out completely. But hey, the scale doesn't lie and I'm a happy girl right now.
Sorry for the novel ... if you got through it congratulations! And I hope to chat with you soon!
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123 pounds to loose I'm new need buddies
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