Hey doll! I am originally from Essex but now live in Shropshire. I have done some time as a stand up comedian so I know a bit about the biz and know how much it takes to lay yourself open to the public. In my field though it is acceptable to be fat, probably more than to be slim, less threatening maybe, but its hard to be 'public meat' and be unhappy with yourself, and it keeps that cycle going to doesnt it, feel crap, eat, feel crap, eat!
I am aiming to get to 140lbs, having 136lbs to lose to get there, although its actually 127lbs now!
I can see for your shy pic that your a pretty girl and have lots to give and I am sure your talented too.
You must also have a thick skin to be into show biz, or maybe like me and many others in this industry a lack of self respect!
I don't have all the answers, but we might have similar trains of thoughts, so if you wanna chat, then feel free to contact me!
Its hard to motivate you becuase I don't know you, but if your aim is to work in show biz then your gonna need to turn your negative reations into positive actions or you wont survive the rejections.
Hope that helps chickadee!
Bonjul