I feel like I am borrowing this body.
I've reached my 1/2 way goal and am lighter (and thinner) then I have been pretty much ever. I feel like I am going to wake up tomorrow and be fat again, or whoevers body this
really belongs to is going to come looking for it. I never considered myself to have low self esteem, but I feel like people are looking at me and I don't know what they are thinking. Do they think I look cute? Fat? Gross? DH tells me every day that I am doing well and that I look amazing. I have the best support in the world but I am having a really hard time letting go of the weight. I feel like if I could look into the future and see what I will look like I would be more at ease. I also feel like I need to hide in my "fat pants" until I reach my goal, then I can come out. The only problem is, my fat pants won't stay on my butt. Which is good, but now I have pants that
touch me. It freaks me out. people can see everything.... I guess it's just from so many years of hiding my body.
*sigh* does anyone have any good (non-religious) books I can read? My grandmother gave me one, but it kept talking about how god has a plan, which is fine, just not my style.