So I woke up this morning and I was back up a pound from where I was yesterday morning. I knew this would probably happen but it was still a bit crappy to see.
I dragged my butt to the gym anyhow and my friend and I did a solid 35 minutes on the cross-trainer/elliptical machine (whatever you call it), and I did a good 100 crunches and 50 side bends on either side.
My gym has a little personal log sheet where you put in the dates that you were there, and check off what you did--cardio, weight circuit, etc. As I marked off today's date and checked the box, I glanced back at the other dates from the two years and a bit that I've had the gym membership.
I was so discouraged. And afraid that what's happened before is going to happen again.
September 1, 4, 6, 7 ----Big Break---- October 30th ---- Big Break---- November 25th---- Big Break---- February 12, 13---- Big Break---- March 26th--- Big Break (during which I went to Ireland)---- October 3, 4, 5----Big Break--- and it goes on like that.
I'm so afraid that even though I've gone to the gym this month on the 7, 9, 10, 11, 12, and 13th, that I'm suddenly going to stop going, go once next month and fall back into my incredibly sedentary ways... and gain even more weight. I keep telling myself that this time is different, that I'm gonna keep going this time, that I'm going to reach my goals... but I told myself that every time.
Augh. So discouraged!
On a side note: I have given custody of my scale to a friend who lives across the hall. She's not to return it until Thursday. Woo.