Yesterday (Christmas Day) was my 90th Day of abstinence!
It is just so weird to think back on when I started in OA in September and I could never have imagined still being in recovery 3 months later - but with my higher power's unending love and help, here I am.
So over the last 90 Days, I have planned and eaten 3 meals a day and nothing in between, seen a significant improvement in the amount of time and energy I spend obsessing about food, eaten healthily, seen my skin begin to glow because my body is happy to happy good clean food as opposed to the junk I ate before, I never feel like I am dieting or missing out if someone is eating junk around me, I have learned to like myself a bit more, I am getting better with other people, I don't assume everyone is judging me because of my size, I have just had a big family Christmas and didn't feel particularly interested in the mass of sweets and chocolate that were laid out for being to snack on while we were opening our presents, I ate my Christmas lunch (it was delicious), I filled my plate once with the things I wanted to eat and didn't help myself to any more and I didn't want anymore, I enjoyed my lunch without stressing about calories or getting more food, I stopped eating when I felt full. More importantly, could enjoy my family without being so focused on the food that I couldn't give them any attention.
Physically, I have lost 31lbs in the last 90 days, but the best thing is feeling better in my head, free from guilt and more connected to the people around me and my higher power.
I am so thankful for my recovery and all the amazing support I find on the board.