Well both my roomates are away for the weekend and I'm in an out of visiting family. There are extra trigger foods in my house because I made the dessert for a dinner party a few days ago and of course there are treats at every gathering I go to!
SO needless to say, I'm not doing well.
I definitely binged last night, today, I can't even remember the last day I felt like I ate completely healthily. I think it was Tuesday. Oh goodness. Well I finally realized I could not have these treats in my house waiting to be eaten so I made them into something delicious. That was supposed to stop me from stuffing them into my mouth, but I ended up eating some of the treats. Then finally I decided I would bring the rest to work. I wrapped them up and they are all ready to give to my coworkers on Monday. I am finally not tempted by them at all. That could be because I feel actually ill. I looked at the clock after having eaten quite a lot for the day (I thought, it must be around 4:30 because I've eaten enough for it to be that late) To my surprise, it was 1:30. Disgusting. I'm so frustrated with myself. I know I'm going to have gained weight by my weigh in and I just am sooo frustrated. I'm putting the ispirational pictures I have in my agenda onto the fridge so I dont forget why I tried so hard before. I was gung ho until I saw a plateau. I think it has been a whole month since then and I'm afraid I've completely ruined all the work I did.
I promise you members that I am back on track. No more crap being brought into the house. I even resorted to eating some of my roomates treats. It's sick. Anyway, this battle is not over.
I'm promising you
