| Heidijn |
12-20-2007 07:28 PM |
After a couple of hours of lurking on different forums & reading tons of posts, this is my first foray into 3FC. Not sure why I picked this thread, but it stuck a chord. I too live in a very conservative area and feel entirely out-of-place, more so since my husband moved out nearly 2 months ago. While my wardrobe is a far cry from the black-lace-laden days of yore, inside of my 39 year old body I'm still the girl who used to paint her lips with blue liquid eyeliner.
Which is part of the whole joining-a-forum thing. I am trying to figure out who I am, where I'm going and what I'll do when I get there. Maybe it's a midlife crisis, but I feel like I've lost a big part of what made me feel unique and self-confident.
My weight used to hover around 145#, but I quit smoking nearly 4 years ago and watched it creep up past 160#. AND I started smoking again. Smoking, while stupid, became part of my "alternative identity" as an angry goth.
So, yeah I have many Liberal views and am a non-religious person who smokes, living in a small town where seemingly everyone has 2.2 children and eats meat and potatoes in their uninteresting homes every night. Now that I live without human companionship (2 dogs & 2 cats though, far better company than the majority of humans!) I'm looking for some support, advice and friendly kicks-in-the-butt to get my weight and my life in control.
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