Hi all.
Don't quite know what to say. I am in a bit of a funk. Aside from the hormonal stuff which I realize probably wrote way too much about before. . . I just found out yesterday that the company I work through lost my major account. My income is now 1/3 of what it was, overnight. I have been a bit of a mess. All I want to do is sleep. I have been on line and done a couple of entry tests for other companies, but no nibbles yet. I have good skills and I know that someone will want them. The transition is **** though. I don't even have a resume any more. I tossed it. Didn't think I would have to look for work again. I'm basically stuck. Haven't exercised. Have done a thing in the house. I haven't eaten too badly, but I certainly haven't been careful. This has put me in such a tailspin. My hubby says not to worry. Everything will be fine, but I can't seem to shake the depression. Keep watching my videos of "Jewel in the Crown." Haven't worked on my concert music, which I must do soon, or cancel the concert. At the same time I have not been allowing myself to do any fasting and trying to accept that weight loss should be gradual and steady. I have been eating less at night, but also more during the day (when I used to just drink water or eat fruit). I know that fasting gives me a false sense of control over what is happening wiht my weight and I am trying to change that. Maybe I am trying to deal with too much all at the same time. The weather is supposed to be really nice over the weekend. Maybe by then I will feel up to going out and doing something. I'm sorry to be new here and be such a downer. . . .
Hollie
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. . . sometimes life just seems to pile up on us, doesn't it? Hang in there, Chickie. Everything will be okay soon. good stuff is just waiting around the next corner.
