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Old 09-07-2004, 03:18 PM   #1
Liv's Mom
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Question Can I join? I REALLY need support!!!!

Hi,
I Just found this site yesterday and thought it looked like a great place for me. I am 29 and my dh is 34. We have a beautiful dd who just turned 2 in July. She is the light of our lives. Anyway, I have struggled with my weight all my life. I have gone from thin to chubby to everything in between!! Ever since my dd was born 2 yrs ago I really have not even had time to think about taking care of myself. I would like to lose between 30-50 lbs. I have no idea how much I weigh as I refuse to get on a scale at this point. I used to have great will power when it came to losing weight. If I set my mind to it I could always lose the weight I wanted....only to eventually gain it back of course. I would like to get back to the size I was when I was married back in 1997. I felt great about myself back then and haven't felt great since then! My self-esteem has gone way down due to how I feel about myself. If I had my way about it, most days I wouldn't even leave the house. However, I have my dd to think about so that is not an option. I really don't want my dd to sense my weight issues and I certainly don't want to pass them on to her. It just seems like I always start the day off with intentons of eating healthy and exercising, only to fail by lunch time. It makes me feel like such a failure! Anyway, this time I feel that I am ready. I want to get healthy for myself and for my dd. I started today off good and I am still doing good so far (it is 2:15pm). I am just so scared that I am going to fail yet again! I am really hoping I can do it this time. I would like to get pregnant again right off but really don't want to until I can lose some of this extra weight. If you have made it this far thanks! I am just really looking for some shoulders to lean on through this and someone that can relate. Is there anyone else who is just starting out like me?

Sorry not much of this makes sense. I have so much on my mind with all this that I probably am rambling!
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