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Old 07-03-2004, 11:58 PM   #1
MichelleRae
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Default Happiness, how your weight affects it

I know that personally, when I was overweight and not doing anything about it I was mostly miserable, frightened, and trying to seclude myself from the world. I was afraid of what people would think of the fat woman who was me, the women I used to make fun of, how horrible was I? Let me tell you though, I am glad I got to be overweight, only for the fact that it has made me a better person. I am no longer the snotty person I was before when I was a size 2 and cleaned up pretty well (vain? moi? Nevah lol) Instead I'm caring and nurturing and I see everyones beauty not on the outside but on the inside. For this I'm thankful because being fat, obese, overweight, pleasantly plump, whatever you want to call it, it made me open my eyes and see there is more to people more to life.

So now on to the real reason I'm posting this besides sharing with you all how vain and uncaring I used to be. We're all here and getting healthy together and seeing the changes in our bodies. I've noticed that I'm so much happier, even though I am still overweight, I know that I won't be and I'll be healthy soon and its changed my whole outlook on life.

I know that when I started gaining weight and mostly the time when I was at my highest weight that I hated yes hated what happened to me. WHY ME? So, anyway, I stopped caring, I stopped caring about how I looked, I stopped caring about having nice clothing, I stopped caring about doing my hair or makeup things that used to make me feel good, I stopped LIVING.

I now refuse to let my weight or the meanness of others deter me from my goal. My sister the other day said the greatest thing to me, she said "everytime I see you (which is almost daily) I can tell how hard you are working and how much progress you've made" how wonderful is that!! Then, I went shopping for some new clothes and again my sister came over so we could go out and she says "oh look you are all cute now!!" I'm so thankful that she compliments me through this because it's important to my success I think. I believe that if you look at my avatar picture which was taken last week , that you can tell that I've become a truely happy person.

I thank god everyday that I got fat, only because its made ME a better person.

I just thought I'd share. I'd like to hear your stories, if you feel comfortable sharing them.
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