Can't get over it..
I don't know if this is the best place to get support for this issue of mine, I'm also in therapy and that helps but they just do not get the connection to eating that my depression and relationship issues bring to my life. I have always had very low self-esteem, I've been overweight my whole life. 2 years ago I lost 60 lbs... and was making great changes in my life. Then last year I was sexually assaulted, and my way of coping, eating, led me to gain back all of that weight. Recently Ive lost 10 lbs of it again, trying to move back in that direction. Then unfortunately had a really hard situation with a guy I thought I could love going back to an ex girlfriend instead of me. My main trigger, and I don't want to let it overcome me. I don't want to be the same person, and be affected in the same way I have been. I don't want to be depressed. I don't want to rest my entire future and how I feel and what I can do on getting back attention from a guy. I don't know how to change it, and I don't know how to have a different relationship with my depression and food. But I want to.
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