Been feeling more depressed lately. Wanting to use food to ease pain
Hi
I am in maintence. I hope it is okay to be writing here. Because I always run the risk of putting those pounds back on. Its a constant threat and battle to keep that hundred pounds from creeping back on yet again.
I have been feeling even more depressed lately. Grief pain etc seeping in. Death of brother earlier this year. An expereince with a therapy situation which I had wanted to work out. But I had to terminate it because I could not progress as quickly in the 12 weeks as she needed me to. Panic attacks ensued when she told me she hoped I would have made more progress. She did not return my phone call when I had to cancel (5 days in advance) and asked her to call me to reschedule. There was more. But it was hard because I tried SO hard to be the perfect client working so hard. And trying to be so productive.
Sorry for the rant. The end result is grief has hit me even harder, re my brothers passing. ( He passing was a profound loss for reasons i will not bother to go into) And therapy just did not work out. End result, the pain of wanting to calm aka self medicate with food. Just wanted to write this out here. Maybe someone can relate to some part of it. Trying to fight the urges to go out now and get food to calm. In my experience, the feeling gets stronger as the hours progress. Even at 5 in the morning. Any suggestions would be gratefully accepted. Thanks
Last edited by flower123; 08-16-2014 at 06:17 PM.
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