I'm posting this in 20-Somethings because I figure this is a group that is more likely to be experiencing what I'm about to post about since we're young, but anyone is welcome to post!
I've always been overweight, since I was a kid. There's only one time in my life that I've successfully lost weight - 20 pounds - and it brought me to the weight I am now (I obviously regained that and then some, and have finally lost it).
I don't know what it's like to be a normal weight! And around here, I feel like I'm the only one sometimes. I find myself obsessing about how I might look as a size 10, 8, etc. I find myself worrying that I will end up like many people here whose weight has yo-yo'd their whole life. I wonder if I will still be unhappy with my body at a "normal" weight. I wonder if I will ever get below my lowest known adult weight (probably 180?), or if I'll always be stuck here. I have no clue what my goal weight actually is - right now it is based on BMI, but when will I actually want to stop? When will the journey "end"? How will my style change? What will I wear! Will I have a small waist? Will my boobs shrink to nothing?
So I wanted to see if there are other people like me and how you feel about it. Are you worried? Excited? Do you daydream about it as much as me? Try to visualize what you could possibly look like?
Last edited by nonameslob; 06-26-2014 at 10:14 AM.
I am completely with you on this, I have no idea what I'll look like. I see pictures of toned bodies and I just can't imagine myself ever being that size because it's simply never been my reality.
For me, I worked my goal weight based on BMI too, 130 lbs is in the middle of the healthy range so that's where I'd like to be - comfortably in the middle so if I do gain a few pounds I'll still be healthy. My lightest weight in adult life was 149 lbs, I was starting to see the beginning of a "V", I always thought it was a trick of the light but sure enough it was starting to show through. Honestly, it was amazing! My stomach was still a little bit pudgy but it was shrinking. Unfortunately I regained a lot since then, but in a way I'm almost just as excited to get back to that point now that I've experience it.
I think about being at my goal weight a lot, almost every day if I'm honest. It's just a nice daydream in a way, something to keep me going. I have no idea how I'll look and sometimes that's a bit disconcerting. For example my boobs are huge and I really dislike them for sticking out so much. I would love to have breasts that aren't too in your face, I hope that losing the weight will achieve this but I'm not so sure. I know they'll always be noticeably big, but not to the point where it's what people stare at. But ultimately, I think about how comfortable I'll be with my body, how I won't mind wearing form fitting clothes because I won't have to worry about rolls of fat appearing through my clothes, like the awful roll that a lot of girls have under their bra strap! That's the worst one I think, because you really can't hide that one until it's gone.
But what I am the most looking forward to is my face looking thin. I currently have a small double chin, I'd love a sharp jaw line! Whenever I see before and after pictures I'm mostly amazed at the changes in the face. I can't wait to see what my own transformation will do to my face. So overall, I think about it all the time and it gets me excited! I'm about to be apart from my boyfriend for a long time, I really hope I can lose a lot of weight before he sees me and see the look on his face!
Glad to hear I'm not alone in it! I've never even really considered that I could have a different looking face, though I always love seeing those pictures, like you. Since my face has always been relatively the same (except for the double chin and puffy cheeks I began to develop at my high weight), it never crossed my mind that it could change even more LOL
It really stinks that you won't be seeing the bf for a while, but what motivation to keep working on yourself and give him a nice shock the next time you see each other
I feel you on this. I mostly worry that I will end up like my mom - obsessing over my weight and constantly dieting but never seeing real success.
I'm 5'7" and the lowest weight I've ever hit was 130, where I pretty consistently wore a size 6 and a Small in most things, but even at that weight I've always had a visible "gut". I find it hard to imagine that my body is capable of having a flat stomach... I don't really believe it is. The most fit I've ever been, I still had a protruding belly. So if I ever got rid of that I think my eyes would pop out of my head.
I, too, have always been overweight. I have no idea what my lowest unknown adult weight is because I pretty much never weighed myself.I knew that I was about 180 in high school but that was years ago. I often wonder what I will look like when I'm thin. But what I realize was that I want to be thin and toned. The bodies that I saw as inspiration were always toned. I don't want to just shrink but still look kind of flabby.
You are definitely not the only one - especially in the last couple weeks, my new obsession has been what will I look like and will I be happy? I've started playing with different body models to see what I'll look like at my goal weight, used a virtual "dress-up doll" to see what different clothes would look like, and now I'm worried what will happen if I get to within 10-15 pounds of my goal and I decide I don't want to lose anymore, or what if I want to keep losing? Enough that I've started to wonder if I'm getting a little too obsessed :/
I was always thin, up until the end of my pregnancy, so I know what my body looks like at my goal weight. And yet, I'm still worried that I won't be happy or like my body; I've never cared so much about how I look than I do right now. My biggest fear is that I'll lose the weight and still be unhappy with myself (and also that I'll lose my boobs, haha). Which is silly, because every ten pounds I lose, I love my body even more. I guess it's that fear of reaching the goal - once I'm there, what do I have to look forward to?
I do totally daydream about what it will be like when I'm at my goal weight, though I look at photos from before my pregnancy and remember how I took my body for granted. That's my ultimate goal in all of this, I think - to be happy with who I am, how I look, and never again take my body for granted.
I think it's so easy to think about it all the time when you're in the midst of it! And I'm so glad to hear I'm not alone in those thoughts and sometimes obsessions.
underanalysis I hope you're able to achieve that flat tummy! It might be hard work, but if you really want it, it's worth the effort.
gonnabfitmom I relate to everything you said. I've realized I also want to be "toned" - I told my boyfriend, I don't want to get skinny I want to be STRONG! I want to look like I could kick someone's a$$! If I'm putting all this work into it, I want the work to show.
futureformerfisher I can see how it would all be pretty new to you because I know the human body can be so different after pregnancy (I do not know from personal experience but I have heard ALL the stories). Plus, after working hard for it, you will be able to appreciate it more!
I'm so happy this thread exists. I daydream all the time of how beautiful I could be if I just stuck to it just one time. I wonder what I'd look like and how trying on clothes when shopping would be fun and not a form of cruel and unusual punishment. Honestly, my most reoccurring day dream is of me doing one of those obstacle course races and kicking total butt at it. Perhaps even getting a photo of me mid-air jumping over an obstacle, showing great athleticism. Okay I'll stop now.. But yes - you are not alone.
What a great post. I think we all feel alone in our weight obsession. I too have no idea what I'll look like and it also scares the crap out of me. Last year I changed my lifestyle and I went from 195 to 165 it was the lowest weight I had ever been and the most weight I had ever lost. I felt good, but not like myself. Compliments made me extremely uncomfortable. I realize this is also slightly ridiculous but I had this irrational fear of men. Like the better looking I got the less safe I felt. I couldn't hang and I gained it all back and wayyyy more. Sitting at 212 now (my highest) and I feel regret for letting that 165 body go. I'd kill for it now haha. I take my obsession for wanting to be "normal" one step further I own like 9 pieces of clothing that fit , but like 100 pieces of clothing for when "I get there". Love the support here ladies! We all struggle, so let's be each others obsessions. Instead of constantly thinking about how to help ourselves lets help each other! Then we will all get there!
I remember being called "pregnant" in elementary school
I remember a time when I thought that your "size" was supposed to match your age, that was just how my brain justified that I was wearing a size 12 or whatever.
I wasn't the kind of girl who liked shopping, so it was only as an adult I realised how difficult my bad habits have made shopping O.o
Hugs to all of you. Yeah, freegeegrl, our weight obsession is really isolating. The obsession is almost as bad as the weight itself. As terrified as I am of hitting my 30s feeling like a lump, only to have children and presumably get worse (Presumably? Why presume I’ll stay fat after pregnancy? Check that bad attitude, girl!) - I am also terrified about being one of those women always obsessed by her weight.
I'm working on having a healthy mind and body I may always have been or be overweight, but I can still be awesome.
Ok, I'm totally not a 20-something (how about double that?) but I know that feeling. When I got to 165 two years ago, that was the thinnest I had been since I was 16 years old. AND... I grew in height after that AND filled out as I was a late developer/grower for a girl. I had NO IDEA what I would discover under the fat.
That's what so different this go around. I know what is there. I know what is waiting and in ways that's comforting and easier - even though, for me, that means loose skin. Yes, I welcome the loose skin (hey, I'm 44 - it's more likely to happen).
But yes... I recall the first discoveries of a thin adult me - it was exciting, scary, disappointing, thrilling... and it felt great!
SophiasMom I love that daydream! I like that it doesn't center around how you will look, but how you will feel and how strong your body will be! Though I bet you could kick butt at one of those now if you wanted to
freeqeegrl Wow, insightful...It really is important to adjust our minds while we work on our bodies, isn't it? I hope you are able to successfully feel comfortable in your skin, at ANY weight.
souvenirdarling I know the feeling of age and clothing size... :/ I remember wearing size 13 bell bottoms (hey, it was the 90s resurgence of the 70s!) in 6th grade. They were way too long, but I couldn't get "hip" clothes that really fit me. I am sure that if you can work on mind AND body now, you will have a better handle on things when it comes time to have kids and can remain healthy throughout a pregnancy no matter what happens to your body.
berryblondeboys Thanks for the insight from someone who has been there
And I thought I was crazy when I posted this thread...guess I'm not so alone after all!
I noticed the other night that my waist is appearing. WHAT! Me? A waist? I've always been kind of boxy. I'm kind of excited to see how that will progress. Next year will be truly exciting for me if I keep this up, that will be the true test of "What the heck do I look like at a normal weight?"
im super excited.I remeber getting bigger after stomach surgery.the scar goes across the middle of my tummy and its kinda deep so it made it looks like i had fat rolls when before i just looked a little overweight.That happened after middle school and ive been heavy ever since.I was super rail thin in elementary school so when i look at photos i can kinda get an idea of what my face may look like.I really want to see my face thinned out.
i just have to wait and see what happens.i plan on weighing 120 but i may get to 130 and say im good or loose more than 120.
I noticed the other night that my waist is appearing. WHAT! Me? A waist? I've always been kind of boxy. I'm kind of excited to see how that will progress. Next year will be truly exciting for me if I keep this up, that will be the true test of "What the heck do I look like at a normal weight?"
This is very exciting! I can't wait to see your progress. I'm all about keeping up with people and their success because it gives me hope for my own. Keep it up!
Always Been Overweight
I look at photos from before my pregnancy and remember how I took my body for granted. That's my ultimate goal in all of this, I think - to be happy with who I am, how I look, and never again take my body for granted.
