Gosh it's been forever since I have visited this site, I let myself go. I regained everything I lost, lost the will to even try anymore.... I hate myself for giving up, I hate myself for not being thinforme... My health is bad, my mothers health is failing and everyday I tell myself that today will be the day and everyday I get sucked into the junk food pit.. I came back because here is where I found so much strength and love and I'm hoping I can get there again.
First things first, welcome back! Good for you for realizing you need some help and came to get it!
2nd, enough with the hate! OK so you gave up and gained weight, that girl deserves a helping hand and not a slap in the face and a "i hate you" You wouldn't do that to a stranger yet it's ok to do to yourself - NO!!!!!
3rd, I wish our wanting it FOR you was enough my dear, but we all know that's not true. Somehow, some way, you'll have to find the strength to do one little thing today to help yourself.
Thank you both, I'm working on the self hate. It's hard but I know what I need to do and you're right I'd never treat another person this way.. I've been punishing myself to long, more it's time to act.
You obviously are headed in the right direction, because you came back here! Look, I want to say all of the right words that will make me your catalyst, but the truth is it has to come from you. I never understood it when people said that, until this go around. I wish you lots of luck and, of course, you've got the best support system here!
Welcome back. You've had some nice encouraging words so far and i totally agree with riot. You got yourself back here so you must be ready to start tackling the matter again.
Please also take a look at a long thread i just wrote about why so many of us tend to fail after all our hard won gains.
I talk about a book which i'm reading. And a few pages ago, i read a story about a woman who went through the same process as you've just described. I've certainly been there too - i.e. the one about planning to get started and then not being able to even go a whole day without giving up.
Anyway, its time to nurture yourself.
One easy way i recommend to people who are struggling a lot at the beginning is to try to start by attempting to eat good foods at a high calorie count. That way hunger is less likely to be on the menu. If say your maintenance calories are 2500 calories, then start there. But make your food wholesome. Wholesome food seems to have healing effect in more ways than one. Plan some meals that will take you up to or heading for that limit. Eat till you are satisfied. Eat well from a wide variety of foods. Nutrition being the name of the game here. This at least might help you make the break from all the problematic foods that are causing you so much distress.
Welcome back! I am with Trazey34, let the self-hate go. We have all been where you are. Temporarily giving up does not make you a bad person. It is not like you were throwing rocks at people or kicking puppies.
Just another thought, you are not alone in this! There actually is a thread for regainers trying to relose. Join us! You were smart to come back here for support. This is the best place for that! And now, you can start the process to get back to a healthier you!
Unsure.... Tired of torturing myself
