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Old 02-25-2014, 12:44 AM   #3
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Originally Posted by FattyPattiW2BT View Post
I wish I could give you the answers you are looking for, but unfortunately, I too am dealing with multiple health issues which seem to be fighting my weight loss efforts.

As for me:
Hypothyroidism / Hashimoto's
Insulin Resistance
Suspected Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Constant, undiagnosed aches and pains

I have gained 30 lb. in the past 2-3 years, and it doesn't seem to matter what I do, it's not budging. In fact, it seems the more I diet, the more the number on the scale creeps up. I have been trying to exercise, but then I hurt so much the next day, I feel like I have been on the losing end with a prize fighter.

I know I shouldn't complain... I have great kids, and an amazing, supportive husband, who I met a few years ago, and we married about a year and a half ago. He tells me all the time he finds me attractive... But I can't help but worry... what if I can't stop this weight gain? I have never been what I would call skinny, but I was comfortable with myself when we met. Now, I can't even bring myself to look in the mirror at this stranger in the reflection.

He got us a gym membership, but then I had to buy clothes to even be able to go. Nothing fits me anymore. I went last night, but cried all the way home after being surrounded by all the perfect little sized 2 women around me. I feel like a fish out of water, and that I will never feel good again. I feel hopeless, because I worry that once again, this will not make any difference, and today I sit here feeling like I have been hit by a bus. My health is not good, and my body seems to fight me when I try to help.

Sorry to whine. I'm not in a good place, and since moving out of state a few years ago, I have no real friends to talk to. My heart is heavy, along with the rest of me. I am hoping someone may jump on this thread with some advice from experience.... how to turn hopelessness to hope?
So Patty I really hope I can help you find a glimmer of hope. I have suffered with anxiety/depression/FM for about 8-10 years. I also have hypothyroidism. About 7 years ago I moved from my home in Ca. To Arizona and new next to no one. I had no motivation to get out of bed and with the pain I was in it was a viscous cycle. Since my back injury/FM diagnosis I have gained about 80 lbs. when I moved back to Ca about 18 months ago I was really bad. I still have my issues but I do find that I get out of bed daily and I have a better outlook on life. I am ready to try losing weight and I am choosing crack the fat loss code because I tried it for a short time before and it seemed like a good fit for my low metabolism. I really felt a connection with your story so I wanted to respond. We r told that. A size 0 is perfect and if we aren't we r flawed. It is not true. U sound like a wonderful person and u need to embrace yourself and who you are. My recommendation is to find a job or hobby or something where u can meet people and get out of the house. I have found the worst thing was laying around all day. It was making my pain worse. Now that I get up I take less pain meds. Also when u do exercise you need to take it easy. Don't over do. It. This has been the hardest point for me because when I feel good I want to go out and exercise hard but then I hurt for 3 days. I have found 15-40 min is my max at a slow to moderate pace. I can work up to more but I have to start much slower. Also don't forget to stretch. It does help reduce thT post exercise soreness. I get cold and stiffen up so I try. And keep warm or take a shower when I'm done to reduce this. Walking nod swimming nd yoga work best for me.
I really hope this helps. Don't give up. We r all individuals and our size does not dictate who we are.
Please excuse all of my punctuation and spelling errors. I was typing quickly on my iPad and trying not to lose my train of thought. Hope you understand

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