Ok ladies, it's been a long time since I've posted anything. But I have still been lurking. So much has happened in the past year. Let's see where do I begin?
1.) This past holiday, I celebrated my 4 years of maintenance. Yes, it's incredibly hard, and no, it's not really a celebration in my eyes, just a "holy crap I did again and made it through another year!" But I still have the rest of my life to go, and as time goes on, I'm finding it harder and harder to maintain. I'm chalking it up to my age. I'm quickly approaching 33 this February, and a while back, (3 years ago to be exact) I posted a blog where I was inquisitive as to when our metabolism slows down due to age. Some people responded positive, other negative, alas, we are all individual beings that evolve in unique, different ways. This brings me to #2
2.) This past holiday, dare I say it, from November (Thanksgiving) to New Year's, I gained...wait for it....keep waiting...16 FLIPPIN' POUNDS!!!! And I've been working really hard to loose them. So far, I'm down 8 pounds, but the anxiety is killing me. I increased my workout, got back on track, and the first 8 pounds fell off so easily, but these next 8 just aren't budging. My clothes are tight, I'm depressed about it, I REFUSE, REFUSE I tell ya to admit defeat and go up a size in clothes.
3.) The "wonderful husband" we all thought I had, ended up being a wolf in sheep's clothing, SO...I divorced him. I'm sure Lifetime can't wait to make a movie about it. It's definitely watch worthy, and would probably boost their ratings a bit. Therefore, I'm single again. *sigh*
4.) Although I had some really bad hardships, and curve balls thrown at me the past year, I will not let it bring me down from the lifestyle I had worked so hard to achieve. During my divorce, I lost our house, my car, no child support, (Long story, but seriously child support is not available) and I fell into a really dark hole. I resorted to bad habits, made some stupid decisions, but I picked myself up and got back on track. Since then, I bought MYSELF and my 2 kids a house ALL BY MYSELF, got a new car, got promoted at work, started working out again, and now I sit back and look at the bountiful surprises I've been given. This was all accomplished through hard work, strength, and dedication. The lesson here ladies, is 2 things:
A=When you want something, if you want it bad enough, you'll do whatever you have to do to bust your butt to get it. No one will give it to you, unless you give it to yourself.
B= Men are pigs. Whether we are over weight, or skinny, we are all still possible victims to be taken advantage of, and no one is excluded. This was overall a very hard lesson for me to learn. Keep in mind, if you're losing weight to get a love in your life, it doesn't change anything. The prettier the man, the uglier they are inside.
So chin up, keep on going, and know, that anything can get accomplished when you really put your mind to it. I hope you all are well! I look forward to hearing from lots of you.
For now, I'm cool as a cucumber