I had planned on and tracked a burger last night. The boyfriend decided he wasn't hungry at dinner time (and he's the one that grills) so didn't make them.
I then took that as carte blanche to eat about half the stuff in my cabinet/freezer. I did track everything and went over my daily calories by about 1.000, which wasn't as bad as it *could* have been...but it wasn't pretty either. The weird (and scary) thing? I was sitting next to my boyfriend the whole time! No comments from him!
I even keep quick stuff in the house to make (salad, soup, etc), but I'm not sure how to redirect myself toward the healthy stuff instead of the non-healthy. Part of me is even wondering if I'm subconsciously trying to sabotage myself.
Staja, I find it hard to regroup when my plans are disrupted, too! Logically, you can say, "Just replace it with something with the same calories," but realistically, being thrown off-kilter can be very disconcerting. Also, I've found that if I'm not eating what I wanted (like that burger -- yum!), nothing else satisfies, so I keep eating, and eating...
But now that's behind you! Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and make this a better day!
Staja -- it is really hard to pick the healthy stuff over the junky stuff if the junky stuff is readily available. For me, I had to pretty much clear the house of that stuff until I felt really established in my habits.
And even now -- when I have well established good habits -- it can still take alot of mental energy to make the right choice. Some days it can be exhausting simply choosing a salad instead of 3 bagels with peanut butter.
I don't want to completely dictate the kind of foods my husband can keep in the house (so I don't), but there is no denying it would be ALOT easier if there was never unhealthy choices close at hand. But life is rarely that simple.
I completely get that feeling of disappointment when you were anticipating a bit of a treat and it does not happen. As noted it is tough to deal with. Having a backup feel good thing has often worked for me. Today I went to lunch with a friend and we shared a Chinese chicken salad. They apparently did not toss it though they usually do. She served herself first and ended up with 95% of the chicken and I got the rest. Of course I was then feeling unsatisfied and starving after I got home (meetings in between). My mind was already starting that horrid self-talk about how I did not eat the planned anticipated delicious calories and I "deserved" to make them up. Right! I grabbed some eggs, snipped some garden herbs and make a quick egg white omlette and toasted some homemade bread. I had a lovely mini meal (sitting down!) and felt so good. Having back up plans/options is a good thing
I can relate to all of this! It's depressing. If I saved all the money I've wasted on food to reward myself, I'd have a really nice reward by now. At least I know there are others who understand. Thank goodness for 3FC!
Binged last night
