Hey y'all! My name is Amanda, I'm 28 years old, and I'm very, very overweight. I'm about 250 lbs right now, and at 5'5, I'm positive I should be about 100lbs lighter than what I am now. I've been between 220 and 250lbs for about seven years now. I used to be incredibly active when I was younger, and now I just can't seem to get my body or health where I want it to be. I played all sorts of sports in high school, and while I ate unhealthy foods, I never ate a whole terrible lot. When I got to college, I stopped exercising and started napping, drinking and eating a lot more. Cue near-instant weight gain.
I used to hate my body...had a full-fledged eating disorder [compulsive over-eating]. Ate all the hateful feelings away until I was so full, all I could do was curl up and try to sleep. I was depressed, angry, bitter...it was a horrible, horrible time in my life. I've mostly recovered from those feelings, but it does seem to rear its ugly head whenever I get stressed or upset.
Anyways, I figured community support is best and I've been lurking here on and off for a while. Thought maybe I'd give being active a shot.