Hey guys, I'm Alex. I've been lurking around the forums for a few weeks now and thought I'd come out of the shadows heh.
I've struggled with my weight my entire life. I hit my biggest at 248 almost 2 years ago and knew it was time to do something about it. At only 5'4" this was not a pretty sight at all. I remember seeing a pic someone had taken of me and just couldn't believe that guy was me.
I had built up the weight in undergrad and was just isolating a lot in that last year of school, eating a ton of pizza, ice cream, etc. With an extremely rigorous diet and exercise routine I've been able to get down to 150 in the last 18 months. I've basically been hovering between 150 and 155 for the last 4 months. I know I'm continuing to gain muscle so positive changes are still happening but I feel very stuck in terms of fat loss. At this point I'm really looking to get to 140. I've still got a good bit of pudge (skinny fat) and feel that would be a healthy weight for me.
I know given where I'm at now that maybe I'd be better suited for the 'featherweights' forum but really I'm just looking for male support. I have very real issues with food at this point (binge eating tendencies, overly preoccupied with food/meals) and I feel like the public dialogue surrounding these issues is geared so much toward women, which is great for them but it just makes me feel more isolated. I even went to some OA meetings recently but didn't really fit in there either. I just want to get to a point where I can enjoy the progress without feeling so obsessive.
If you're still with me here, thanks for reading. Just being able to type this out is helpful. Any thoughts, encouragement, or other comments are more than welcome.