I was here a long time ago, and achieved all my goals.
But within a week of me hitting a dress size and weight I could live with - my father was rushed into hospital and, six months on, died. So basically I stopped caring.
That was a few years back and over the past few years I have regained all the weight I had lost plus another half stone.
I had a very slow and sensible approach to weight loss, often only losing 1/2lb a week or less, as I have PCOS. So it was a whole lifestyle change and a way of life i thought I would maintain, as it wasn't a crash or faddy diet/exercise regime - just common sense, really. But I hadn't factored in my dad dying just as I hit target.
It hit me so hard as my mum died when I was a child so he had been my mum and dad, really. All the travellig backwards and forwards in the last months took their toll. I came back here once, a couple of years back, but still wasn't psyched up enough.
Now, finally, I feel ready and am back.
I have given up running, and as I am 51 now, think that is too punishing on my knees (plus I live somewhere remote so only felt safe running with my dog who also died the same year as dad, believe it or not, so running is out of the question). For my 5oth birthday, I got a bike which I love - and will be using that at least 3 times a week. Only dropped off in my cycling last summer as it rained non stop...
I intend to lose weight the slow way, same as before (it took me 2 years
), just eating sensibly, whole foods mainly, low GI because of my PCOS, and exercising more. Would love some support from anyone in the same boat - anyone here but most especially anyone else with 'grief weight' or PCOS, as the challenges are a bit different. I also have to spend time figuring out why I gave up so completely, the minute disaster struck, so it never happens again. Would love to hear from any oldies, too who have been on the site a long time.
Anyway for anyone who remembers me, yes it's PhatPhoenix and here I am - again!