I posted on Friday about binging, saying I would end it that day. Well, that didn't happen.
We were dogsitting at my parents' house all weekend and my parents had cooked for us (even though I said it was unecessary). My mom made us tomato soup (lovely, low cal thing I could've subsisted on) but my dad made his famous chilli, which isn't so much chilli as it is sausages and beans in a rich tomato sauce. Yeah...over the course of 3 days I ate the entire pot, by myself, because my fiance didn't fancy it. Not to mention the cream puffs, late night sandwiches, martini mix and diet cokes, and chocolate biscuits we shared on those days too.
It's Tuesday now and I weighed in at 212.6 this morning. 3 lbs heavier than I was on Friday. I know some of it is just water weight but I'm sure at least a pound is actual fat. Strange as it sounds I can see a difference in my body.
Well, I've re-recommited. I've promised myself new nailpolish if I stay on plan for two weeks. A portable coffee mug if I stay on plan for 1 week. And if I get to onederland by mid-November, I'll still pierce my belly as planned.
So far so good, had a salad for lunch that I pre-made at home so I know exactly what's in it. I'm going to the gym today. I'm just going to take it one day at a time. 3lbs isn't a tradgedy. But I am disappointed with myself. I went back to all my bad habits I had when I lived at home.
With only 3 months left before my wedding dress fitting I NEED to make it to 180 AT LEAST. It's still 25lbs below goal but at least I can accurately see what my body will look like in the dress I pick by then and I can just order the dress a size smaller. I still have over a year till my actual wedding, more than enough time to get to 155 - 150. So it's not the end of the world.
Sorry for the rant. Encouragements and admonitions equally welcome.
Good for you for getting back on track so quickly. Alot of times when I have binged I just give up. I am thankful every day is a new day and we can start over. You will do fine and i wish you success..
Hey Katbot! I know ALL about losing weight for a wedding! Both for my own and my sister's. I started "early"--like, February, for an October wedding--and ended up needing every bit of the time. As you get closer to goal, you lose like 1 pound a week--maybe 1/2 a pound. So you're smart to take it very seriously now. It seems like a long way away, but it's really right around the corner. Congrats!!
today was my planned eat day.
I ate 2500 calories...
eating my usual breakfast and lunch and then,
I ate brown rice, black rice, apple cider, soy crackers, rice crackers, cheeeezeeeeeeeeee with soda crackers, peanut butter filled pretzels...
luckily today, I didn't have craving for m&m peanuts..
I ended up doing alright for the day because of my BMR and 13 miles this morning covered the calories I ate.. so far, this week is good. can't complain. but then again, PMS & TOM is coming .... sooner than I'd like.
who knows what is going to happen then..... worried.
partial success today. No gym because of a headache but I stayed on plan...ish. I had a muffin at confirmation classes which was unplanned but I made up for it by not putting noodles in my tomato soup (156 calories per bowl without the noodles! 450 with, the muffin was only 30 calories more than the noodles so it evened out)
I have a salad for tomorrow too. I think I'll post here for a week to try and keep accountable.
Really, really well done for getting back on the plan. Knowing you're made a mistake and rectifying it is an important step to kicking the binge habit, and I'm only just learning this!
I'm a terrible binge eater, I seem to just inhale food and I don't even enjoy it when I'm eating it, but I have found that keeping my hands busy helps. I know that sounds odd, but I love knitting and find that as long as I'm knitting, I'm not eating! Maybe if you find something that will keep you occupied you'll be able to keep your mind off binging and will be able to beat your minimum target of 180