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Old 08-10-2012, 09:38 AM   #1
NYFLAgirl
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Default Mad at the old me.

I was wondering if any of you have or are currently dealing with this issue I am right now. I'm really pissed off at myself and for some reason can't seem to shake it.

Not to go too much into it but I'm currently dealing with some loose skin issues-since I'm losing weight and working out a lot I'm dealing with um...some rashes. Sorry-I know TMI. But last night it got me thinking and I started to get upset. I can't seem to stop being mad at the person I was four, five, or even ten years ago. I was never a yo yo dieter. I just never cared. I never watched what I ate and never exercised. It wasn't until about three years ago I decided to get my life together-and I've been overweight pretty much my own entire life.

So I'm having a hard time now that I'm working so hard to not be mad at myself. To not be mad at all of those wasted years of opportunity where I could have done something to stop myself from becoming so morbidly obese. I know I can't change the past and it does nothing to help my journey now to dwell on it. But I can't help but thinking about jumping into a time machine and screaming at my old self "hey chubby-put down the burger because THIS is what your future will be!!" Even as I type this now I have tears in my eyes. It just makes me so upset to think about.

Has anyone else experienced this? If so, what did you do to just move on?
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