Man, I'm glad that work week is over... After work yesterday I went and got Botox!
My forehead is a bit tender today but they said that my big old worry line should soften up a bit, and I'll see results in a few days. I was a little nervous about it, but the doctor managed to convince me that I would still have use of all my facial expressions... haha. I was worried about that!
Anyway, this morning was weigh-in day. I didn't have *quite* the drop that I was hoping for, but it was better than nothing... 117 lbs, so down .8 this week. Considering that at my size that's actually pretty good, and that this week was crazy stressful and I managed NOT to stress eat
I will consider it a success!
I'm still up a wee bit from where I want to be so I don't think that I will be treating myself to any 4th of July BBQ goodies this week (I have 3 of them to go to!) but that's okay. I'll just press on and look forward to my wedding vacation. 3 weeks from today I'll be getting married!
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Pixellate - I can totally relate to where you are. It does get harder as you get lighter and have less to lose and that's usually when I find myself overeating (or on the rare occasion, having an all-out binge). Some folks say they overeat out of boredom or stress, and while that's definitely true for me as far as why I WANT to, what actually makes me pull the trigger and give in is if I am close to, at, or under goal.
When I have weight that I am working on losing I'm pretty dang focused, but if I don't have that far to go or am right where I want to be, there is the "what's the big harm? I can undo any damage... I passed my goal... etc." reasoning that kicks in.
Really, I have learned that for me, it's okay! If I am at my goal or really close, why CAN'T I eat a big meal or two and treat myself? Its a journey for life, and I'm not going to spend the rest of my life in fear of deviating from some arbitrary number, especially when I can easily jump right back into my healthy habits and take it off again.
Maybe that's just me, but that's how I'm coming to see it; I don't have to feel guilty if I go off plan - it's NORMAL to overeat sometimes. ****, we have entire holidays basically devoted to food and it's okay to eat an extra 7000 calories on those days, even encouraged!
LOL, sorry, sort of going off in a weird direction there, but you know what I'm saying.
Dottie - Bikinis are hard! I don't think it matters WHAT my body looks like (and I will admit, I'm pretty happy with it most days) being in a bikini is uncomfortable. You aren't hiding ANYTHING! It's not just size and shape, but you've got to think about stretch marks, stubble, etc... it's a rare woman that really feels at home rocking a bikini. I say, "fake it til you make it"... as long as you are having fun it doesn't matter! You may be no happier or more comfortable in that thing 5 pounds from now. Keep shooting for it, and enjoy the journey, but when the time comes to go out and have fun, get in that suit and let your attitude rock it. After all, it's YOU, not your body that people want to hang out with.
